feverishly writing an essay that ptobably isn’t going to make sense in the morning?!?!?!?!
it’s not even that i feel like high school is my peak, because it’s not i mean i hope to god it’s not, it’s just that i’m so shit at adapting to change and it freaks me out to have so many choices because that means there’s equally as many ways to go wrong. i went to a college fair the other day- because i feel lik e if i start preparing for this shit early then it won’t have me stressing so much junior/senior year- and i had a sort of internal breakdown ebcause the whole process is just overwhelming and it will be a huge adjustment. i feel a lil better about it now because i feel like i’ve narrowed down my choices but i probably won’t egt accepted to the places i wanna go and even if i do there’sstill the issue of financial aid ug h? very sorry for putting my anxiety on display but jesus christ this is a sucky process
i think maybe i’ll make an exception to my no emoticons. seriously, are you 5? no. no emoticons. rule if you just keep those winkyface text messages coming
back from camp
leaving there always gets me pretty down
CPC is just such a great place with such great vibes
it makes me feel so much so intensely and, when compared, daily life at home is so soft and slow and i don’t like it
2 weird 4 da real world